Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I have a little story in Smalldoggies Magazine.  Read it here.

Friday, January 27, 2012

I am lonely.  No, that isn't a true statement. It is just a feeling that came over me just now that i put a name to and that's the word that came out.  So, does that mean it's truth?  I don't know.  I just need a mother's arms right now, maybe.  I need to feel deep in a pillow.  I want to feel on top of a tree, tight with no storms.

I have this problem where I feel in jeopardy all of the time.  It's an unstable feeling.  I wish it would go away but it probably won't.

I remind myself how hard last year was and how there was survival and how that should lessen my worry for this year.  I should make a t-shirt.  I should write it on the mirror in lipstick or toothpaste.

"YOU SURVIVED WHEN YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULDN'T"

Probably wouldn't make a dent in my worry.  It's my nature.



I have so many submissions out to "upper tier" magazines and I hope they find homes.

They are good stories.  I have to be patient.  They will find their ways. They are worthy. <----these are things I keep telling myself, rejection after rejection after rejection.

If you are still reading this, you are a good man.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

They caught the guy who was stabbing homeless men.  He killed three of them or four of them because he was stabbing them with knives.  When the news was reporting about the stabbings of homeless men I kept thinking about that Stephen King story, “Apt Pupil” where the kid makes friends with a Nazi neighbor and blackmails him into telling him all about the atrocities he committed.  The kid devolves into something that enjoys killing homeless people in cold blood more than he enjoys having sex…among other things.  It’s really one of King’s more evil stories and I’ve read it only a few times but it’s one of those stories that always stay with you.  I wonder why more people don’t talk about it.  It’s so effed up.    

The homeless shelters passed out ‘kits’ to the homeless people to help them in case of attack.  The ‘kit’ had a whistle in it and tips on what to do or what to look out for.   A whistle.

Anyway, they caught the guy and he’s 23.  Twenty three and stabbing homeless guys to death.  I wonder if he read this story, if he has a Nazi neighbor.  You never know. 

Monday, January 9, 2012

You should try doing things.  Especially the things you have been putting off.  You can do these types of things most any day of the week.  They won’t take as long as you thought.  They won’t be as hard as you thought they would be.  You will be surprised.  You will do these things and then you will go, “That wasn’t so bad,” and you will feel completely awesome as you stand back, hands on your  hips, admiring your handiwork.  You will feel like Tim Tebow.